ADR3-N 2023-09-23 15:48:39

I don't know except he has a habit of getting really close to his followers and emotionally supporting them with a sweet savior/fixer complex. That's the person I knew before all this, since at least 2016, a really close friend, almost family.

We related about autism and other mental problems, before I was trans and after I detransitioned. It brings up a LOT of unpleasant feelings.

Back then I worked with him on several projects. I supported him. We were close. I felt comfortable with him talking to my mom and my fiancee. He knew my real name and my problems. He never showed a hint of a crack in his persona for years despite how vulnerable I was. Just the constant moral support, so this was a shock. I think I was even the first person I think to buy his Piercing Lazer album. I was so naive.

When I saw his half-ass apology for what he did, I didn't even know what it was until I found a comment. He hinted at suicide so I laid into him. I wanted to make sure he didn't do it and to get the whole story, the why.

He responded with several rabbit trails about how everyone was going to hunt him down, he shouldn't have done this, more suicide baiting, he was sorry to have hurt me (because he knew about my past trauma with the same exact situation), he shouldn't have thought he could get away with it (much much later), and by continuing to send monetary payments and supporting the victim emotionally it would somehow make up for what he did. Really warped when he literally created a furry sex dungeon where they had... milking stations and paid a minor for sex acts.

The result of that conversation is this post. And he still tried to turn around me telling him all of the above doesn't make sending her his dick (all we knew at the time) ok by appending it to his own "final, final farewell." He wanted me to believe "Poor Johnny was too dumb to turn down a 15 year old girl he felt sorry for and still loved, and all he did was sext and exchange pictures. Her boyfriend was abusive, and she constantly berated them both if she didn't get what she wanted. Johnny felt like he had no right to say no. Johnny has autism and is very sad he hurt her. Cry face." Eye roll.

I feel like after all this that a part of me died. I realized I can't trust anyone online after seeing that document. Really gross and depraved shit.

ADR3-N 2023-09-26 18:14:44

It doesn't sound like it. Also, Johnny never bothered me IRL either. From what I know everyone is safe physically.